My Life At Forty Five

I am forty five and I want to live my life in my own design. Happiness means I abandon my fears and rely on my strength. Inhibitions? I want them out of my life. Honesty, I aim to absorb not because I want to please others but simply because I want to please myself. For many years I envied those who can freely express themselves, exuding confidence in every display of emotions. I longed to speak my mind but I ended up worried of the outcome of the words I utter. I want to untie myself from the bondage of pleasing others as a top priority. While norms are regulations to ensure my peaceful existence with others, They are not created to compromise sanity. Norms control behavior but they are invented to thwart happiness and freedom. Character is molded and heightened when you know who you are. As for this moment, all I want is to be me and that what matters to me now.