Saturday, July 18, 2009
Friday, July 17, 2009
Missing My Papa
Accidentally, I clicked a video of a friend posted in face book this morning. I tried to cancel it but it did not respond so I was left without choice but to view it. I saw a scene of a sexagenarian father and a middle aged son seated in a bench outside their house. They were in a garden surrounded with trees, flowers and green plants. The son was busy reading the newspaper while the father was like listening to nature. The latter heard a whistling sound of a bird prompting him to ask his son what was it. The son said it's a sparrow. The father asked many times the same question annoying and displeasing the son. The latter yelled at his father asking him what's wrong with him. The father paused in silence momentarily, then he stood up, left the place and went inside their house. When he came back, he brought with him something like a book which I realized later as his diary. He opened a portion of said diary and asked his son to read it loudly. When read by the son, it was accounted by the father that " he was once in the same place with a little boy. A sparrow went near them and the boy asked him many times what was it? He patiently answered the little boy that it was a sparrow and each time the same question was asked, he hugged him tightly letting him feel that he was pleased to answer the same question. The son suddenly came to a realization of the overflowing love of his father for him.
I envy the scene because the son had all his chance to let his father know and feel that he regretted being so insensitive and impatient on dealing with him. My dad was so good as he opted to ignore our being uncaring and unresponsive. I remember vividly, he was so happy to get a kiss or a hug from us if we receive an extra amount for our school daily allowance. When he was drunk, we all shunned away from him. It was too late when I realized he needed comfort and understanding. Papa left us without knowing how I (or we ) truly feel for him. Though considered closest to him, I still wasted so many opportunities to thank him, to tell him how proud I am of him and to let him know that he is indeed a very good person. With this revelation, I could have contributed a smile in papa's face when he left us.
My tears are now futile. The video I watched this morning is not only touching but heartbreaking. Oh Papa, if you can hear me, I hope you will listen to every word my heart speaks. It speaks of love and longing for you...
Papa, I will patiently share to all your grandchildren the legacy you left to us - your children. Only few witnessed your brilliance and integrity as you were a simple man with simple dreams for your family. Questions like"Who built the great walls of China?", "Who was the greatest leader of China?" and "Who was the assistant of Mao Tse Tong?" will be bestowed to your descendants. The nobility of your unique historical accounts will also cling to the walls of the patriarchal home that you built for your family.
Papa you deserve to be remembered. Thank you for touching my heart today as it reminded me of what I have missed all about you. I love you, Papa
I envy the scene because the son had all his chance to let his father know and feel that he regretted being so insensitive and impatient on dealing with him. My dad was so good as he opted to ignore our being uncaring and unresponsive. I remember vividly, he was so happy to get a kiss or a hug from us if we receive an extra amount for our school daily allowance. When he was drunk, we all shunned away from him. It was too late when I realized he needed comfort and understanding. Papa left us without knowing how I (or we ) truly feel for him. Though considered closest to him, I still wasted so many opportunities to thank him, to tell him how proud I am of him and to let him know that he is indeed a very good person. With this revelation, I could have contributed a smile in papa's face when he left us.
My tears are now futile. The video I watched this morning is not only touching but heartbreaking. Oh Papa, if you can hear me, I hope you will listen to every word my heart speaks. It speaks of love and longing for you...
Papa, I will patiently share to all your grandchildren the legacy you left to us - your children. Only few witnessed your brilliance and integrity as you were a simple man with simple dreams for your family. Questions like"Who built the great walls of China?", "Who was the greatest leader of China?" and "Who was the assistant of Mao Tse Tong?" will be bestowed to your descendants. The nobility of your unique historical accounts will also cling to the walls of the patriarchal home that you built for your family.
Papa you deserve to be remembered. Thank you for touching my heart today as it reminded me of what I have missed all about you. I love you, Papa
Saturday, June 27, 2009
My Tale of Love
Feeling in love is different from one who is actually in love. Feeling in love is merely a state or condition which does not necessarily mean love in true sense. Feeling in love is a creation of the mind, maneuvered by one’s thought or desire and exaggerated by emotions. It is oftentimes mistaken as true love because it comes too strong as it is usually propelled by emotion, passion, sentiment and great expectations. If you are hooked with this feeling, recovery from heartbreak is slow and sometimes remote. Feeling in love could inspire you to build a castle woven with magical background and details of a fairy tale like love story with happy ending. What happens when reality strikes back? Can you (the creator of this magical love story) be like a professional actor or actress who leaves the set after the show, unaffected by the role he or she portrayed? I have witnessed reasonable number of persons who by choice remained to hold on to the feeling, acting as protagonists as they struggle to survive the pain brought by love struck and heartaches.
If only we can learn to accept love as a reality and not as a mere state of feeling, maybe the survival rate of love relationships would be higher. God is always the acme of our life and the true cause of happiness. They claim the love shown to us by God is not the same as to the kind of love we want to extract from our so-called “romantic” or “passionate” relationships. Is it really accurate to argue the difference of love for God and love for your partner? If love is sourced out from God, then it is the same love that you share and give to others including to your partner. Being actually in love means accepting the responsibility of commitment and sharing of each other’s life. It is not an acceptance of only those you like or you desire but it is accompanied with the duty to adopt the risks and consequential effects of the relationship. Take for example, if you pray to God for something you desire to have, your prayer is always answered by him but not exactly in the same manner you want it to be. You may never know or discover unless you listen to your heart that God has already answered your prayer only in a different way. Comparing this with your relationship to your partner, you tend to appreciate acts or conduct of your partner which are apt to your expectation. Noble acts done for the sake of love and respect that are not programmed by your expectations often times end up unnoticed and unappreciated.
Love is a reality so with the happiness or joy that it brings. If relationships fail to survive the test of endurance, reality will save you from the perils of heartbreak and depression. If romantic love ceases, reality will guide you to the truth that there is still enormous love within you…. Love for yourself, your friends, your family and most of all, love of God and love for God. Now I ask you, do you think it worthy to abandon these ordinary yet lasting forms of love in favor of your failed, ended or lost love affair? You see, if there is still love overflowing within you, the reality is - you can love all over again !
If only we can learn to accept love as a reality and not as a mere state of feeling, maybe the survival rate of love relationships would be higher. God is always the acme of our life and the true cause of happiness. They claim the love shown to us by God is not the same as to the kind of love we want to extract from our so-called “romantic” or “passionate” relationships. Is it really accurate to argue the difference of love for God and love for your partner? If love is sourced out from God, then it is the same love that you share and give to others including to your partner. Being actually in love means accepting the responsibility of commitment and sharing of each other’s life. It is not an acceptance of only those you like or you desire but it is accompanied with the duty to adopt the risks and consequential effects of the relationship. Take for example, if you pray to God for something you desire to have, your prayer is always answered by him but not exactly in the same manner you want it to be. You may never know or discover unless you listen to your heart that God has already answered your prayer only in a different way. Comparing this with your relationship to your partner, you tend to appreciate acts or conduct of your partner which are apt to your expectation. Noble acts done for the sake of love and respect that are not programmed by your expectations often times end up unnoticed and unappreciated.
Love is a reality so with the happiness or joy that it brings. If relationships fail to survive the test of endurance, reality will save you from the perils of heartbreak and depression. If romantic love ceases, reality will guide you to the truth that there is still enormous love within you…. Love for yourself, your friends, your family and most of all, love of God and love for God. Now I ask you, do you think it worthy to abandon these ordinary yet lasting forms of love in favor of your failed, ended or lost love affair? You see, if there is still love overflowing within you, the reality is - you can love all over again !
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